The mind is not designed to fix OUR problems, we only think it is.
The mind can never be our inner authority, we only think it is.
When we’re experiencing a problem, we cannot see the solution because we’re too close to it. It’s like not being able to see the forest for the trees. We need others to expand our point of view.
Mechanics of Our Brain*
*The actual organ vs. the mind which is different from the brain.
Everyone tends to have a dominant hemisphere. You either present as a logical or an abstract thinker. You either tend to respond in a “masculine” or a “feminine” way, this is not related to your sexuality.
In human design when we look at your variables, which are represented by four arrows, either pointing left or right, this will indicate what kind of thinker you are.
[Source: The Human Design Variables by Isabel Klusik, pg 24]
My brain (top left arrow) has a right-pointing arrow, and my mind (top right arrow) has a left-pointing arrow. [See my HD variable chart below] My mind is logical and my brain is abstract, which is interesting because I am neither logical nor abstract dominant but a combination of both.
When you’re facing a significant conflict in your life AND there is no solution according to your dominant hemisphere, that hemisphere will experience this as a neurological event and become “blocked”. See the image below of a CT Brain scan showing the concentric circles with the epicenter in the right hemisphere. Those circles in the image are cutting off the normal neurological pathways. The location of the neurological event within the brain will be in accordance with the nature of the conflict but that is far too advanced for this article.
My intention is only to show the science behind what I am saying – what is happening within your brain. When people dismiss depression, and “poo-poo” it like “it’s all in your mind” as in, it’s just your imagination or an exaggeration; that’s out of ignorance. The struggle is REAL. This is the evidence. You have a scientific explanation for being “stuck”.
When you cannot respond in your natural way, then the brain has to switch approaches. When your dominant hemisphere becomes blocked, like in the image above, the brain has to switch hemispheres to find a solution using the other part that is still available to you. At this point, there is still no risk of suicide.
While this conflict remains, should you encounter a second life challenge and you cannot find a solution to either of the problems, then the other hemisphere will also experience a neurological event and become blocked. Now you cannot respond with either mental approaches, abstract or logical thinking. Both paths are blocked.
This is when suicidal thoughts start to arise. The brain is under so much stress, its solution, like a computer, is to sever the power supply. This risk is real! This is why it’s critical to seek help from others to gain access to their ideas, insights, and opinions to alleviate at least one of the conflicts.
Part of the problem of course is that we’re relying on our minds to find the solution because we haven’t been taught to follow our inner authority. We believe our minds are our authority.
Talking about the problem for the sake of talking about the problem isn’t going to relieve the conflict. Instead, it’ll amplify the problem. So, talking to the right people is also essential. If you’ve got a legal problem, you’re not going to go see an accountant for an answer, right?
Suicide does not enter the mind if there is only one conflict. The risk becomes real when there are two significant conflicts.
Suicide happens when a third crisis arises. When both hemispheres have experienced a neurological event, blocking the neuropathways to find a solution; when a third problem enters the picture this is when it becomes completely overwhelming for the brain and the only way out is to end its life or become schizophrenic. Below is a CT scan of a brain that has experienced three neurological events – the red arrows are pointing to the impacted areas.
I have so far described life problems as arising as singular, linear events. But it should also be noted that a person can experience three conflicts within a singular event and that’s why family and friends can be shocked when someone takes their life – that there were no “warning signs”. Please don’t blame yourself if you have suffered this kind of loss. This loss is hard enough to deal with. Don’t punish yourself by blaming yourself. There was nothing you could have done to prevent your loss.
I admit that I struggled with suicide in my life, including attempting suicide on multiple occasions. I speak openly about this because it makes people uncomfortable to talk about and that’s part of the problem. Being uncomfortable with other people’s feelings is what prevents people from seeking help because there’s a stigma of shame as if we’re all supposed to be able to do it all alone. When realistically no one has all the solutions to all of life’s problems.
I encourage you, if you are encountering two major life problems and you don’t know the solution to them, to seek help. You’re already having serious doubts about your ability to keep going. The risk is if you’re already encountering two major life problems should a third come along, it’s suicide that you will see as your way out.
When I was suffering from PTSD, I followed all the recommendations of my counselors and psychologists as this was the most logical approach. They were trained professionals in treating PTSD. Despite this, PTSD was a daily struggle to live even an approximate “normal life” for me. However, I did cross paths with an exceptional psychologist who diagnosed me with Asperger’s. One of my stepping stones to overcoming PTSD was following my abstract solution when all else had failed.
What had triggered my PTSD was a car accident. Driving was one of the triggers of my disabling anxiety. My abstract solution? I went to India for 15 days! I faced my greatest fear (at that time) and came back alive. It was not a logical solution. I was fully aware it would either make my PTSD worse or I would finally overcome it but I had to do something to get off the plateau I was stuck on.
Again, the irony is our minds are not designed to fix our problems. It boils down to that we’re not following our inner authority, which is the correct way for us to make decisions. My inner authority found my solution by going to India and confronting my fear, this was not a solution of my mind. I would never have found that solution through my mind through logical thinking.
And yes, I struggled with thoughts of suicide during this time because I was also going through my divorce but I also sought help.
I share this knowledge of the mechanics behind the cause of suicide, not only to prevent suicide but to help others who have lost loved ones to suicide. Do not take the blame or feel ashamed of what your loved one did. They were encountering too many big life struggles and they did not know how to ask for help. That is not your fault.
I want to point out how this solution comes from the mind; the phrase is, “We’re having suicidal thoughts”. It is the mind that thinks about suicide. It is not a solution coming from your body. The body fights against suicide. The body and the Spirit within it want to live. All the solutions that the mind comes up with are coping mechanisms, like addictions, that numb the brain to reality and are not real solutions as the problem is still there the next day when you sober up. Your true inner authority would never choose to harm itself.
To free yourself of addictions or suicidal thoughts, it is paramount that you learn your inner authority according to your Human Design.
Remember, there is no shame in asking for help. Everyone needs help at some point in their lives.
Suicide is NOT an act of self-love; we just tell ourselves it is. Asking for help is.
If you struggle with thoughts of suicide, make sure you have one person you can call anytime to help you. Even if it’s a hotline, have that number programmed into your phone.
NOTE: The information contained in this article is NOT strictly Human Design as I have trained in multiple health sciences and have merged them here. This is not something you would hear from other Human Design practitioners.
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P.S.
For those of you who have been following my mother’s story, she went from critical care last week…
To her finding her Will to live! She’s been in hospital care for 63 days at the time of this post and today is her birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! Glad you’re still with me 🥰 She’s a spunky lady.
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